It Hurts...

Have you ever experienced the kind of pain when someone you love doesn't reciprocate the love you've given them? Well, I'm in that kind of situation right now. I am trying but I always fail. And you know what, it hurts. So much.

It's been years that I've been trying to regain the closeness that we had with my brother. We were so close when we were still kids but when he reached high school, everything changed. When I also entered the secondary level of my academics, it's really different. Totally different. Questions popped out in my mind and always asked "why". I really don't know what really happened. Maybe if I did something wrong, i can't remember what I did. It's just so confusing and it bothers me always.

In the present time, it hurts me most when I always see him having fun time with others. This is true especially to my cousins and the sister of his girlfriend. I admit I'm jealous and I know I have the right since I'm his real sister. (Forgot to tell you that we also have a little sister but they're close). I just wanted to clear everything. The reason behind all of this. I can even remember one of my closest friends felt that it's like we're not siblings. Even at school we didn't say Hi to one another. I know it's wrong but I don't know what to do. I even consulted a priest and ask of what to do and when I tried it, it didn't work.
All I want is to have that closeness back. I wish we just remained kids so that I can always feel his love. :((

*March 12, 2011 (His 20th birthday yet he didn't thanked me.)

Here it comes again for the second time around.

The news says it all. From the 8.9 earthquake to the tsunamis in Japan, people all over the world are alerted of what is expected to come. Countries such as Russia and the Philippines are now in the verge of expecting a tsunami.

I was in the library around 3 PM when my mother called. She then informed that an earthquake just shook Japan followed by a tsunami. The signal that time was choppy because she was in Mati, Davao Oriental but she made it telling me what she wanted to tell me to. Davao Oriental, my province, is now in the state of panic because of the Alert Level 1 Tsunami. Being curious of what had happened, me and my classmate then went to the computers and searched. It’s really true that our province is one of the 19 provinces being alerted to experience a 1-meter tsunami. Upon reading the news, I then spread it to my classmates in order to help me and other people to pray in order for the calamity not to make it’s way.

Last year 2010, exactly the 28th day of February, I was alerted because of a said tsunami to hit the Philippines. And in the present day, March 11, 2011, I’ll be experiencing again the anxiety I felt last year.

People all over the world, let’s strengthen our faith and pray to God, our Father, to spare us. Let’s also pray to those families who are victims of the earthquake and tsunamis.